4. The Anti-Climax
February 19, 2015 Endnote: Please note that this was pre-drafted (and I’m glad it was pre-drafted, because there is no way in hell I would have time for this right now). So, while I may have had touchy, squishy enthusiastic feels about Setlock and whatnot at the time I drafted this post, I can tell you that I feel quite differently and detached to everything acting right now (at the time I thought it’d be a long year because of the Christmas special wait, but now I think I’ve moved on and I’ve kind of grown-out of that scene and I think I can stop watching Sherlock, even… I have a list of films that I kind of want to see, but I’m not pushing myself too hard to make it happen lest I hurt myself in the process—I’ve lost interest in appreciating other actors’ work now too, it seems). I have other plans that have nothing to do with film or television and generally enjoying life. And I’m excited about my office jobs right now, which is what I have to look forward to, and I’ll stick to that. I’m starting to get comfortable and silly excited with the whole UNCLOS-related stuff too:
I hope I won’t necessarily regret pursuing acting in the long run, when I finally realise what life lesson I’m supposed to learn from all this—although I am getting teary-eyed right now (ha, I really will never recover, will I? Hm) that I never got a chance to redeem myself from my shitty first role (and I do really still feel regretful that it all had to happen, right now I wish I never did it). I really earnestly thought I was going to make up for it in my third role. I auditioned hard to make-up for it, but now I can’t even bring myself to audition anymore. I guess I’ll just have to live with it.
![The best music in the world in '90s music. This song came up in the car on our way to dinner today. The late '90s was the best time on @MTVAsia and Channel [V]. They also played this song on the radio:
https://itun.es/id/-Hf39?i=1037851118 (Father wanted to know what song it is because he said it sounds old—it's big-sounding music, but it's really a 2015 @007 soundtrack for the Bond film #Spectre). It's recent. It was nice because I was looking at my "Bond on Bond" book by Roger Moore in the car while it was on... Hm. 👩🏻🕶🇬🇧🎥🍸🎶 #90s #90sMusic #90sKid #SavageGarden #Radio #Singalong #CarVideo](https://scontent.cdninstagram.com/t51.2885-15/s640x640/e15/c0.90.720.720/18879363_364830963918895_9164898677049786368_n.jpg "The best music in the world in '90s music. This song came up in the car on our way to dinner today. The late '90s was the best time on @MTVAsia and Channel [V]. They also played this song on the radio:
https://itun.es/id/-Hf39?i=1037851118 (Father wanted to know what song it is because he said it sounds old—it's big-sounding music, but it's really a 2015 @007 soundtrack for the Bond film #Spectre). It's recent. It was nice because I was looking at my \"Bond on Bond\" book by Roger Moore in the car while it was on... Hm. 👩🏻🕶🇬🇧🎥🍸🎶 #90s #90sMusic #90sKid #SavageGarden #Radio #Singalong #CarVideo")
